My positive thinking reading reveals that what we are most passionate about, is our true purpose. When we are truly absorbed, unable to “put-it-down”, we are experiencing the life our higher power intended.
I’ve been absorbed by writing since childhood. However, I wavered and therefore became an artist. The reason I abandoned my dream can be found on this former blog post At sixty-five I’ve embraced the power of positive thinking.
Instead of writing, I created two-dimensional art. I peddled my art for money.
My first art-for-money-peddling experience was when my son Matt was an infant. I wished to buy my then husband a gift. I wanted that gift not to be bought with “his” money. My goal was to earn enough, on my own, to purchase something he might relish.
I drew black and white pencil and ink sketches of wildlife. With my baby on my back, I headed out to hawk my drawings. I found several places willing to buy my work. Then I found one gallery owner willing to barter. I traded several drawings for a large print of two duck decoys. My then husband loved duck paintings.
Later I was able to gift him a set of golf clubs by bartering with a Wilson representative. I traded a large watercolor painting of Lafayette’s Headquarters in Chadds Ford Pennsylvania for those irons, wedges, and woods.
I painted on pretty much every possible surface simply to make money. I painted on glassware for my store Whimsical Rose. I painted on walls, I painted a portrait (Ed O’Bradovich, Dan Hampton and a roll of Duct Tape). But painting was never my passion. Painting never sucked me in, inducing me to lose whole days enthralled by brushing color on canvas.
Long ago God lit a fire under me to write. I’m unsure exactly what he wants me to say. But I’ll just keep writing. Posting my posts. Dreaming my dreams and manifesting a life as a writer.
I just ordered Natalie Goldberg’s Writing Down the Bones. I read it years ago. It was extremely inspiring. Back then, however, I was a painter. Not now. Now I’m a writer. And this writer intends to reread and be inspired once again.